musings a go go

Let me tell you a little secret....I have been going thru terrible withdrawals from Lexapro for over a month. I had weaned myself down to half my dosage and then going cold turkey for 4 weeks. I have been on this medication for about 3 years now and even though it helped me at the time, I'm trying not to be a slave to anything--prescriptions, cigarettes, alcohol, etc.... I am no crazy Tom Cruise, and for God's sake my major is in Psychology....I have anxiety and depression but paying $50 a month for a medication and the doctor won't even give you samples when you are in need? Don't get me started....Well after the third day I started having "strokes" and "heart attacks" and continued with shakiness, concentration loss, twitches, lethargy and brain "zaps". Every day during lunch I would have to come home and lay down for 30 minutes because I was totally exhausted. When I woke up this Monday morning, I had a CLEAR head, had energy, enthusiasm and actually felt good for the first time in a LONG time. So, there it is in a nutshell....I was going off my SSRI which I have been on for 3 years, and the side effects and withdrawals have been AWFUL--doctors should tell their patients how "crazy"and horrible getting off this medicine can be. They at least give Methadone to Heroin addicts when they quit....